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So I am listening to Ben Folds and chilling out at work. So my blogger hasn't been working and it hasn't let me on to update - sorry to my 2 faithful fans...ok maybe 3...well...life
I'm pretty sure I'm PMSing - like its bad - I just feel bitchy ---completely and I'm around all these happy smily people and it makes things worse! I see some potiential issues with this girl I'm working with - just our styles of doing things will probally clash...I will admidt she is better at doing everything better than me...not bitter but yet can reconiize these things. So I found out that AJ has a girlfriend - It upsets me and I don't know why...it started as saddness then turned into a bit angry. I guess that is hiding my hurt undereth it all. I just wish...well what good does that do...I then thought about me and I wish I was satisfed with my life...but I'm not. I pray all the time to be don't get me wrong...I know I should be but....I always feel like something's missing and I wonder if I'll figure out what is. I don't know maybe this is all crazy talk...I watched the notebook last night and can I say I balled - so sobbed would be a better descrition about what happened...a movie has never made me cry like that. It was good but still... I just want to start my period so I can be in a better mood...I hate not having control like this. ughhhh girliness.....................................