almost complete

I've almost finished my scrapbook of this summer - Looking at it is hard because it doesn't seem to do it justice. I guess the reality of 11 weeks counting for no credit has me a bit blue to be honest. I've been having a harder time adjusting to returning than I though possible. This girl here was like my best friend last year - I mean we did everything together. Well it went sour and she decided she didn't like me so much anymore. Well we are now talking again - I mean I've missed her but I'm not sure about the whole thing. I mean I forgive her and hope that she can forgive me for what all happened but I guess it drags up some old pains that cut me really deep. She really really hurt me when she made her decision - Now I don't even know what to do about the whole thing - how do I handle this situation like a mature Christian woman. I feel like I can't be feeling this way - I'm supposed to be the strong one - I'm the one who has to lead when in truth I want to do anything but lead at the moment -I want to give up and run away. I guess this days stress is really getting to me. On the good news side I got my job back - Praise God from whom all blessings flow! God has given me such amazing friends here that totally back me up on things. God has provided me a way to be here. God gave me an incredible summer in New Zealand. God has given me this beautiful computer to use. God has given me health. God has given me a loving (for the most part) family, God has given me my dashing good looks, He has blessed me with so much - I am so thankful! He has and is good and I just need to ride this wave of bad junk out.