Scary As

Hey so there is a guy getting into the girls dorm here at Johnson. It happened om Saturday night ---my neighbour was one of the people. He uncovered a girl while she was sleeping and then ran when she started screaming ----ok that wasn't my neighbour but still ---how scary is that --- It happened at least to every wing once. I never lock my door --well until now --now its always closed and locked. Like I try not to be scared but well who wouldn't be. I haven't told my mom --she would so freak. The dean is all liek there has been a "security breatch". So yeah uhmm sleep has been hard at night. Uhmm so yesterday I talked with New Missions Systems about affliating and they were all like just get your references in and you're in. Scary! I would work in the home office in Florida for a year at least --- doing PR work and leading short term missions trips. It could be really great. Its just hard to pin it down. I really wish I was going to New Zealand but I see that this isn't God's timing. I honestly keep hoping that I'll meet someone and we'll do ministry toegther --but it looks like I'm goin into this alone ---so scared about that too. This summer taught me how hard it is to do ministry alone and I'm honestly doubting if I can. I mean I know if God is with me I can but still...