Yeah my ankles are covered with bites from some unknown insect from cleaning trash up at UT. They ich like mad and are driving me insane!!!!!! So yeah not much is going on here. I'm waiting to see if I got credit for New Zealand still - I should find out tommorrow - so scared by the way. The best news is that I got to wear my vote for Pedro shirt today - ok so 1 person got it - well it wasn't about them. Then this girl - ok she's evenan RA - man she was a huge jerk and was all like I heard that movie's stuipd and only guys think its funny. I was all like well call me a guy casue it was freakin halarious. Yeah well stupid thing to get mad at but here at JBC you would think people would be less high school but they aren't - I actually think it's worse in some ways. I signed up to chat with 2 missions agencies tommorrow - kinda nervous. My deadline for church is in a month! I get so sick to my stomach whenever I think about it. After NZ I just realized that I want to be a partner in ministry - to work along sides someone closely - but alas currently no one is interested (the story of my life) also i realized that yet again another Birthday draws closer and I still have not had a first date or relationship - I guess I'm having an emotional day today sorry . It just honestly makes me feel like..unwanted and wonder what is wrong with me. My roommate was like you intimate men - I know she mean well but still...I can't help being me. I guess I'm still getting comfortable in my own skin and it effects all the other areas of my life.
2 comments:
Bella,
I'm so sorry that girl was jealous of your sense of humor. Not everyone got that trait from our Lord, so...I kind of feel bad for her. ;)
Nobody wants you? I think you mean that you haven't yet explored your plethora of options! It'll be exciting to talk with those agencies, you know?! God's doing work all over the place and you know for a fact that He wants you to plug in somewhere by using what He's given you: a clear mind, a fertile heart, and the spunk to be able to jump into something and trust His provision. Find a group whose work you think it's ingenious, where you think you'd be an asset. A month is way longer than God needs, so stop counting down. now. ...please. :)
Maybe I should just put this in an email instead but I think everyone reading this agrees that... Well, it's not going to matter what any girl says about it. I think you're beautiful and. just wonderful. Just keep thinking the way you do on your "i'm so sexy" days, Core. When you're married and in love with the man of your wildest(hmm, is that good?) dreams, these concerns about being desireable will seem so silly.
Glad you saw Garden State, by the way...AND, Brittany and I laughed at Napolean! sheesh. poor girl.
~Jess
Thanks guys - sometimes I need a good what up from time to time! I tend to get in a tunnel vision and only see me - which as well all know is not good.
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