It has begun

....work has begun. I now am offically a cashier at Khol's department store. Man I love/hate this job - is it wrong that I find joy in making some customers mad - like the ones that are jerky to me. I mean people are so jerky to me - they blame me for a) them having no money b) Khols policies c) the bad economy. I do however love working off campus and the people I work with are so great. Is it wrong that some of them were more interested in my internship than people at JBC? The only bad thing is that I work like 25 hours this next week- ahhhhhhh!

So yesterday was soo much fun! I went to the barn dance - which was so fun! I danced with Steven and Josh! Me and Josh can't dance together - mostly it was me that was the problem. I told them to knock me around till I followed their lead. Then we went to see Napoleon Dynomite - for real one of the funniest movies I have ever seen - gosh I laughed hard - all day I'll think of something and it cracks me up! Then I had to do a walmart run then came home. I was a bit pissed off about some comments that were made and vented to Missy - who as always helped me see the errors of my ways/aditude. I called Matt and Steven to apolgize - Steven and I ended up talking for 2 hours - it was really good. I really appreciate his friendship. I know I can trust him and I pray that he feels the same way about me. I am so glad I know where I stand with him - we are just friends and its totally cool! It's great casue there is no arkward tension or crap - we can be ourselves and its refreshing. God really speaks through that man and his transparency. He challenges me all the time.

Ohh so it was a good non-missing New Zealand day - I didn't cry about it all day! It was on my heart but I find the more I get into life here the easier it becomes. I am finding community in the CSF that is beautiful. I wonder why God has blessed me so much sometimes - I mean I'm a no one and yet he has loved me so much- it boggles my mind. I look at Jesse and wonder how I ever lived without her friendship.

I had a good talk with Martha and we discussed some hard truths. My heart hurts for her and what all she has gone through. Her ex is a bastard and a half and I wish I were a man casue I would for kick his ass and then do it again! Sorry guys that do things like that girls should be ....man it was hard to listen to especially with everything that has happened to me in my life. Anyway it was a good talk - we both were able to forgive and agree to work slowly at a friendship. Honestly I barely see my roommate at this point - i wonder when I'll see anyone! I just feel like God is beginning something in my heart and I just have to keep striving after him to find it. I just keep thinking about finding so much joy ministering with someone else - completeing someone's minstry and wondering if I'll ever get to do that again...