So until Tuesday I am the keeper of the twins and Ethan. Ok so I love kids but I don't know how much mor eof this I can take. Ethan is running around the house and needs attention. Izzy is sick and has a fever and wants to be held...Brayden is eating the cat food in the kitchen..ahhh...there are two bright spots in my day - the 10am nap and the 3pm nap..I get two hours of peace and able to pick up the tornado that they cause. I really love them...Izzy today crawled up to me - looked at me and started to flap her arms - signaling to pick her up. SHe cried when my mom tried to take her from me. She fell asleep in my arms - I personally think that there is no greater feeling in the world than a baby asleep in your arms. It fills me with this sense of peace and awe...and this feeling of this is what its all about. Brayden and I are notbonding at all - which is wierd - kids tend to love me! Ethan is well my lil buddy. I took him to church with me and my mom stayed home with Izzy and Brayden (their colds are getting worse). He was so excited to go to church- he wanted to play with kids. I picked him up and he had such a good time. I want him to see church as a happy place. It bothers me that I'm not going to be here to share Christ with him as he grows so I'm trying to leave seeds where I can. Anyway he was a complete sweetheart at church and fell asleep while I was carrying him - poor kid I had to put him down -he's a big three yearold and was hurting my back. He just needs so much attention because my sister really doesn't give him any - but what can I do other than be a temporary ease to a potiential life long problem. It makes me mad to think about the three beautiful children my sister has been blessed with and doesn't take care of. Sure she loves them and loves being loved by them but I don't know if thats enough to be honest. She would rather spend money on herslef than on them. Don't get me wrong I love my sister and all and she's had a tough life - but one can only blame the past for so long - we're not kids being abused and neglected anymore. I really can't complain too much becasue I have my own plank in my eye thats for sure. Well, I best get some sleep - 7am will come before I even know it...so much for a break.
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sorry corey, but you saw it coming and at least you have your shower to look forward to!!
i miss you so, by the way.
it must make you feel a little better to know that I get up for work 4 times a week at 4am. ack.
it's also good that you're seeing the up-side: that you're not just another aunt of theirs, who they don't have a relationship with, and that you are imparting very important stuff into their lives. See~you're a missions major whereever you go. :)
I love you, girlie. don't give up!
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