You know me. Or you think you do You just don’t seem to see I’ve been waiting all this time To be something I can’t define. So let’s cause a scene... I’ve just got to get myself over me - The Format

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

buttons

So I'm not going to lie I love pop music. I love how it makes my hips sway to the beat and how it's easy and fun to sing along with in my car. I mean I love other types of music...classical, some rap, alternative, indy, jazz, blues but right now I'm feelin pop music. Maybe it's because I don't have to think about it that much and it's nice to just be able to relax. It's like most things in my life are whole wheat bread. It's really good for you and even tastes great, but you have to work harder to chew on it compared to white bread that just melts in your mouth and isn't quite as satisfying.Life is slowly getting more and more normal here. It just takes me a bit to recover from home...I hate that it does but I guess that's just the way it is I guess. I'm getting to the point where I'm glad I didn't get the job and realize it was really nice to dream and really think about where I'm headed in life. Laura one of my housemates asked last night if I could do anything what would I do? I said honestly I'd be a wife and a mom...but I can't bank on that happening...I can't wait around for that to happen...I can't apply for it...it just has to happen in God's timing which is perfect. Some days I am totally aware how not ready I am and I'm content and others I struggle more. For now I just need to keep going where God's set the path and keep struggling along. I feel the need to say that after a week of basically continuous rain and bad weather I can finally see a blue sky and sunshine. Storm clouds are in the distance and will no doubt roll in later but for now the sun is shining on me.

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