16 days...

16 days till COAT ends...
I'm not sure how I feel about it all. I mean I love the people (most of the time) and have been stretched and challenged to grow in both my walk with God and in leadership and yet part of me has checked out and is planning the party I will have the day after when my life returns to "normal". But the thing is "normal" has become life in COAT. I'm meeting with Phil this afternoon about my future...he's oked me to go on the field. Part of me wants to celebrate after all I've been working for 2 years for this and the other part of me wants to go to bed and pull the covers over my head. This whole being "healthy" whatever that means is scary...it means change. I'm old enough to be terrified of change and I know it hurts and yet I know that's what is going to satisfy me. It's just wierd how I've transistioned into this new role on campus as someone who gives out rather than someone who takes. That I'm understanding and living by these ideals NMSI has talked about...I've finally almost bought in and now well I don't know what's next. I'm committed here in Ft. Myers at least till next fall and yet Phil has said that if God calls me elsewhere before then he'll support it. (Phil's out president here and pretty much stinking amazing) So about the Holidays...so far I've decided to stay here in FTM. I'm running in the Turket Trot on Thanksgiving day...It's only a 5k but that's a huge deal to me! Last year I cheered and this year prepare for total domination! I've learned in the past 2 weeks I like to run...go figure! Then I'm not sure about Turkey day itself...I'm noncommittial at the moment. On Friday I'm going to Orlando with Craig to meet his family and watch his brother play in the final four for DIV3 soccer. (if his team makes it and right now they are #2). That's my Thanksgiving...hopefully low key and relaxing. I think I'm going to stay here for Christmas too at this point. Oh I've been majorly working on support for next year and... my finger has been healing nicely (picture to follow) it looks basically normal! boo random infections! Oh I also got an ipod which I will now call the bane of my existence...ughhh I don't even want to talk about it!