You know me. Or you think you do You just don’t seem to see I’ve been waiting all this time To be something I can’t define. So let’s cause a scene... I’ve just got to get myself over me - The Format

Monday, November 08, 2004

I'm not dead I swear

Hi, so its been awhile - no this blog is not dead - its alive and well. You know when your like ohh I'll update tommorrow - well I've been saying that for like the past month. So my past month ...so many highlights to mention -(I can't think of any at the moment). Oh well we had soccer regional - we made Steven shirts - Mine had mullet Steven! There were four of us - mullet. bald, cowboy, and mohawk Steven...what happens when I get a picture - it ends up on a teeshirt! That was a good day! Then we had a progressive dinner - where we went from house to house and ate a different part of a meal at each one - fun! Uhmm another highlight was Hannah'd birthday party. It was a surpise and had a pinyata - a bull! it was a themed coyboy party and was fun! I made a doughnut cake for it! It was so much fun! Then another Highlight has been living with Megan - ohh the cabin time we have had! I have laughed so much! I wonder if I can ever live with another person ever! She completes me! We had this improvto dance party where I tried to teach her my "move" and well it was funny! my sides hurt from laughing! It was great she has this bad Christian techno cd - joy electric! It is sooooo awesome - I love it! Heck I'm listen to it right now! "I get a sugar rush thinkin of you too much" so good! circle turn pump pump - thats my move - my secret is out! Uhmm then all teh quality time I've had with Jesse - she is amazing can I just say that. She is my best friend - for real! She give too much! and she's freakin funny to boot! ohh how I love my jessebelle! Uhmm then there was Fall retreat - where I was way crabby and pissy! Didn't want to be but was....It was good! Steven organized this prayer walk and that and the campfire after it were my favorite times of the weekend. Dang he is one gifted man! Uhmm and Josh farted on me - ohh I will fart back and it WILL rock him - it on and the gloves are off - no holding back! Then I've had some great convos with people - there is nothing in the world like a great convo - so satisfying! I've been kinda sick forever - my ears are clogged at the moment and it sucks hardcore - can'y hear! Uhmm then this past friday night I spent the night at Jesse's "flat" and then went to a UT football game - they played Notre Dame! I had soooooo much fun - it was crazy! over 100,000 people packed into an arena! I felt like I was in gladiator! I cheered and screamed and sang along with the masses! It was awesome. I'ma tad sunburned and tired but it was fun! Then I got home and my lil sister had emailed me and said that she got her papers served to her - its offical she's being charged with a felony for posession. It could be Juvenille hall for a year and get on her offical record. My mom has asked me to take her to Florida with me. I'm honestly torn on this issue and upset! I mean why aren't her parents stepping up and should I. I honestly feel like I should - but with being on support and can I...I mean I'm only 23 how can I raise my 15 yearold sister? I want to be honest but can I? Man I'm never going to meet someone. I prayed with Steven tonight and he asked me well wahts hold ing you back - and I told him that. I mean that is really an issue - is it selfish that I want a life. then I hear in the back of my head that its not my life to control! So confused about this! It breaks my heart!
So thats whats been goin on - with a lot more craziness between!

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